18/4/1989. My girl was born.

I really have to write about this.

I have to.

I dreamt of Jessica last night.. (:

We were a couple but my parents did not seem to know about it..

So I brought her along when I was having dinner with my family..

We were in a hotel, having buffet.

When my mom was getting her food..

I talked to Jessica.. We were smiling at each other..

Gosh, I was savouring that moment.

I took care of her really well and also did what a couple would do..

Jessica was really shy.. Our face was so close to each other..

When my mom finally returned and took her seat..

She took a glance at us before telling us not to be so close to each other..

She disapproved our relationship, and I quickly looked at Jessica.

I saw her sad face.. Her head was hanging low.

Then, I kinda argued with my mom in front of her. I was protecting her. ( I didn't know I was such a gentleman in dreams. XD )

When I went back home, I was angry and kept persuading my mom.

I told her that I was gay and there was nothing wrong with it blablabla.

After quite some time, she finally approved!

So I immediately went back to my room and texted Jessica to tell her that my mom approved our relationship.

This is what I typed on the phone :

Hey baby don't be sad anymore, my mom approved our relationship

Then she replied me saying :

We're not an assignment, we don't need someone's approval. Maybe your mom is right, we shouldn't be together.

Even though she said this, I could feel how sad she was.. ( So dramatic, I know. )

I was about to reply...

AND MY ALARM CLOCK RANG. =.=

fuck.

Yeah, this is my best dream ever.

p/s: I seriously did NOT make this story up myself. It was really in my dream. And strangely, I remembered every detail clearly. Very, very clearly. Including the content of the text messages and Jessica's face expression. Thanks for being in my dream. I love you always.

HAHA Using her nose to blow the candles~ Cute!

Hello, hello? Baby, let's get undressed!

Wait.. your place or my place? XD

Happy Birthday Sica-ah~

I hope you will always do your best in everything.

Stay healthy please.

Because you falling sick is the last thing I would want to see.

I will give you lots of love and support. 

Don't worry, if you're tired, I'll be there for you.

If you're sad, I will be the one who comforts you.

If you're excited, I will be on your bed. XD

Just kidding.

Sica baby, my wife-to-be, my cucumber hater, my lazy girl, my sexy baby..

I will love you forever and ever.

'WE LOVE JECCICA?????!!!!'

Romantic proposal..? Not so.

Can you feel my heart?

Can you read my mind?

I love you.

I love you so much.

Do you know how much I love you? T.T

Be mine.

Marry me, Jessica Jung.

Girl, I see you walking by everyday.

So just stop, in the name of love, and say.. yes.

Holy fool.

I watched 'The Host' today.

Whoa.. finally I had the opportunity to watch the movie that I had been dying to watch since months ago.. XD

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee~ ^-^

Stephenie Meyer, I really love you for being able to have such.. incredible idea for a story.

I really admire you. (:

Anyway, recently I had the thought of changing my phone. =.=

I'm planning to buy an iPhone but..

I cannot set my favorite song as my ringtone..   (LOL What? =.=")

If I buy Samsung.. LOL sorry but.. I don't have confidence in this brand..

Almost all the friends that I know have problems with their phone..

Which is exactly why I choose iPhone over Samsung.. hehehehe :P

Please, I need somebody to convince me to buy a Samsung phone. XD

The one that is able to convince me, I'm going to marry him/her! *just kidding*

I already have someone in my heart, alright? Her name is Jessica. I won't turn my back on her. XD

Speaking of which, Jessica is going to appear on the next episode of Running Man..!!!!!

Woooooooooo~ ep141 is the episode. Everybody! GO WATCH IT NEXT WEEK!

My sexy girl is going to sweat a lot.. and when she's sweating, she looks super hot and sexy.

And when she looks hot, somehow I will feel hot too. =.="

Because when she's panting and sweating, I will try my very best to NOT imagine her on my bed...

*ehem ehem* What? *coughs* Umm, sorry what did I say? Hmm.. I did not say anything, you did not see anything. XD

I'm going to get my documents certified by the university tomorrow in order to apply for the public transport card.. =.="

I have to print out a lot of notes also.. =.=

I have to sign up for a lot of accounts.. =.=

I have to settle my subject fees..=.=

Why do I have to deal with so many things? =.=

*sighs* I guess life is just like that? Why is life so hard to live sometimes?

Why are there so many types of life in the world?

Sad life, happy life, good life, wealthy lift, healthy life.. =.=

Everyone is living a different life.. which also means, everyone has their own special and unique life to live..

So I don't see why everyone is complaining about their life..

Just in case you didn't get what I mean, I'm saying that you are living your own life, if you waste so much time on complaining, then you're also wasting your life.

You are living your own life, so why not make the best use of it?

You are living your own life, and you're still not satisfied with it, do something until you feel content about your life.

You are living your own life, you decide what life to live.

If you're still complaining, then goodbye. You only have one life to live, don't waste it.

Wasting your life is just like kicking a puppy continuously until it bleeds to DEATH.

You call that cruel? You are not in the place to say that, buddy.

Imagine how many times you have been complaining about your life.

How many puppies have you kicked to death?

Undeniably, life is hard to live.

I admit, there are over a thousand of puppies I have kicked.

But then I realized, I wasn't supposed to live like this.

Still, it's your choice.

Continue kicking. If life really means nothing to you.

p/s: What is wrong with me today? =.=" I miss writing essays again. I need Taengsic too. I know you both are still in love with each other, so get her back, Taeyeon.

I love you, baby. I always tell you that.

Don't go away because I need you like an ecstacy.

I need a dose of you everyday so I can keep sane.

Don't go away because I can't keep warm without you beside me.

Come, come closer because I'm harmless. I won't do anything to you.

I'm nothing without you.

You make me regain my humanity.

You can only be beside me baby, I need you.

Don't, don't go back to her because I'm better for you.

Baby, please. I love you. I'm not a monster.

Second.

MUAHAHAHA.

The second day at university.

I got to know more friends.

The friends that I got to know today are all GUYS. XD

Great. Finally some guys. Woo~

Well, it's not like I'm so desperate to know guys okay? =.=

Please don't get me wrong.

It's just that.. I need some guys in my life too. LOL

Yeah, you get what I mean right?

Yeah, I know you do. (:

I went there early today, just to wait for the guy who was going to sell his books to me.

BUT.. that idiot overslept..!!!!! >.<

He made me wait for more than half an hour. WTF?!

I kept texting him, but he never replied.

I even called him, but he hung up on me. What the hell?

After my class ended, then he texted me saying sorry he overslept. =.=

I was like.. F you, man. >.<

So, since he's the book seller, I'm going to give him one more chance. LOL

We're meeting each other on Monday.

I'm not that worried that he might oversleep anymore because he told me his finals is on that day. (:

Good. Perfect. XD

But.. I kinda annoyed him I guess?

He's way too funny, I can't believe he would actually get annoyed by just two simple questions.

Hmm. Weird guy.

Then, I got the Student Council application form from the admin office. XD

I'm still considering if I should join or not.

Because I might be very busy after joining. LOL

Oh yeah, I attended the meeting today.

It was quite fun. I was in the Marketing department.

Great. Just what I wanted. MUAHAHAHA.

When I told them I have over a thousand people following me on twitter, they got really shocked.

LOL Why? I'm just too popular. XD

Nahh, I'm just kidding. >.<

SNSD just released their short version 'Beep Beep' music video..

Everything in the MV is in PINK.. LOL

I heard that the MV is directed by Tiffany and Jessica.

Now I know why the background is in PINK. >.<

Tiffany, you love pink too much don't you? Hmmm.

And Tiffany, you look super awesome in the music video.

You look so beautiful. So freaking beautiful.

You are really amazing. You're such a beauty.

Jessica, you.

You. *sighs*

Don't be jealous, you're still my number 1. (:

It's just that.. I don't know what to say about you anymore.

You're too mesmerizing and hypnotizing.

MUAHAHAHAHA. XD I love you baby~~

Actually, I have a confession to make.

I'm really grateful that God let me realize how important English is.

I'm really thankful to myself for working so hard on English since five years ago.

Now, I'm entering university without facing too much communication problems.

I'm glad for it. I really am.

I might not be the best.

But I would like to be the one that beats the rest. (:

Way too ambitious huh? >.<

I am so addicted to SNSD Taetiseo's Cater 2 U cover.

I watch the video and listen to the song everyday. >.<

p/s: Jessica, you make me SO GAY. T.T

Just let me be your lover. (:

Be my lover. XD

Trololololololololololol.

I could feel heat radiated off her body.

I could feel her hot breath on my dry lips.

My heart was beating frantically fast. My body was slowly heated up.

She knew.

She knew everything.

It was like my skin made of clear glass, and she could see everything that was going on inside of me.

And she knew what I had been trying to do these past weeks.

I had been trying to push her away.

I was trying the break the string that we had tied to one and other.

The thing that linked us, the thing that pulled us closer together.

I was trying to get rid of it.

Why?

Because she was right.

We could never be together how we wanted.

We could never be just friends, we'll never be able to have a simple and platonic love like normal friends or sisters do.

We were caught in this limbo, this strange kind of in-between, we were more than friends but we were less than lovers.

I genuinely just couldn't put a label on what we were anymore.

Before, things were simple.

But now, I know she feels the same.

We could never be just friends, like normal girls would be.

We'd always have this dead weight weighing down on our shoulders whenever we were together.

It was complicated. We were complicated.

I hated it.

I stared into her eyes, those confusing brown eyes, that I had looked into countless time and gotten lost, where I saw my own reflection staring back at me.

Then, I froze after hearing the words that came out from her mouth.

"Be my girlfriend."

p/s: Muahahahahahahahahahah. Don't get shocked.

Sica baby~ Sica baby~ (:

Her wink. 

OMG. 

You can't do this to me, Jessica.

You can't kill me by just one look. T.T

1/4. Ready? Set, go.

I should've written something yesterday but..

Unfortunately I was too tired and also sleepy at the same time.. T.T

I woke up at 6.45am yesterday..

How do you expect me to be energetic at the midnight huh? >.<

So.. I'm going to write about things that happened yesterday..

I believe you know that I started my university life on the April Fool's Day..

Since the orientation started at 9.00am..

I arrived there at 8.23am..

I sat in the car for a while because my dad said it was still early..

After 10 minutes, I got off the car and headed to the 'basement university'. MUAHAHAHA.

When I entered, quite a number of people were already there..

Some of them were studying.. some were sitting there and doing nothing.. some were playing with their phones =.=

I didn't know what I should do because I was alone and no one was there with me..

So I found a chair to sit down and just waited for the instructions to be given..

And then.. I met someone that I talked to when I had my 'undang' test..

I was so happy for a second and went up to say hi to her.. LOL

She.. looked really cool. =.=

She gave me a.. smile I supposed? LOL

Whatever.. I finally found a companion..

Then, someone told us to go to the lower foyer because the registration started..

A lot of people were going to study the Foundation course.. HAHA XD

That's pretty good because.. I know I'm not alone after all.

Then we just sat at the auditorium for a few hours listening to all those... speech?

Usually, I call those.. CRAP. XD

Then we went for a campus tour..

I can't believe even though it's like a basement, it is incredibly LONG. =.=

I sweated.. A LOT.

Then, we went for lunch.

Guess what I had? LOL A bread.

Soon, it was time for us to choose our timetable.

Everything had to be done ONLINE.

Wow. Great. HAHAHA. XD

But.. I think the system really played a joke on us.. =.=

The system wasn't working properly.. which was why we all had to do it at HOME.

I guess the system really did an April fool's joke on all of us. =.=

*sighs* My head hurt so much for working so hard on my timetable.

It still hurts now. >.<

It's like arranging my tuition time. So freaking annoying.

But finally I got it sorted out just now!

Basically, everything is done. Yayyyyyy~!!!!

Hmm.. there's still something I need to do. LOL

I think I gotta wait till this Friday.

Since I'm going to have classes on Monday and Friday ONLY for these two weeks.

Then, I will start suffering. T.T

But whatever, I will study very hard and do everything that's worth my mom's money.

p/s: LOL I still don't see why she cried after reading my post. T.T Can somebody tell me which part of my post is touching? I have no idea. Seriously.

WHY ARE YOU SO PERFECT JESSICA?!

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HER EYES.

I DIED.

HEY MY CUTIEPIE XD

Taengsic special.

I can't stand you both any more!

I really can't.. >.<

You both are SOOOOO in love with each other..

And it's pretty obvious..

So, why aren't you doing anything? T.T

Yes, my Taengsic heart~ T.T

But, Sica-ah, if you're hurt.. you can always come and find me..

I'm always here for you.. (:

Tomorrow is 1/4..

And I'm gonna die soon.. LOL

I wonder what it would be like tomorrow..

Will I look stupid? Hmm...

I know I may act like one, but I'm definitely NOT stupid. =.=

What to do? Hmm..

I'm quite.. lost, actually.

Who will I meet tomorrow?

Will I be able to meet my old friends?

Or.. completely new friends? >.<

Why am I worrying about this so much? LOL

I'm scared that I can't find my way back home.. T.T

God, please lead me the way back home.

Please let me be safe and sound. (:

I'm looking forward to tomorrow.. XD

From tomorrow onwards, I will have to speak English everyday.

I hope I will not embarrass myself. (:

Hwaiting, Joey! You can do it!

By the way, I saw the news on the newspaper a couple days ago..

And I kinda had a small discussion with my friend on facebook..

I can't believe her prediction is true.. >.<

Anyway, good luck to myself! XD

p/s: Waiting is all I can do, until you find your way back to me.

You two look really good together. XD

Please get married already.

Taeyeon, who are you looking at? XD

*Ahem* Sorry, she's taken. She's mine.

To: My baby J

     Please take care of yourself even when I'm not around. You will always be my love. 

My ONE and ONLY. (:

From: Your baby J