Beep Beep.

I'm a loner in some aspects..

I don't like going out.. yeah.

That's quite true.. it's just that..

I've been out for so many days..

I just love to stay at home..

Watching videos.. Reading online story..

Muahaha. Yeah, that's basically what I'll do everyday.

I watched an amazing movie today.

'OZ The Great And Powerful'.

No doubt. It was something out of my expectations.

Well, honestly I expected this movie to be boring, childish and absurd.

However, after the first 5 minutes of the show, I was totally captured by it.

It was fun to watch. Really. (:

Anyway, I'm bored. So, I actually planned to do some activities on my blog.

Let's do some Q&A now, shall we? XD

Q: If you're given an opportunity to switch body with somebody for a year, who would you like to switch souls with? Why?
A: I would like to switch body with.. any one of the members of Girls' Generation because.. I think that's the only chance that I can talk to them in person and I would be able to learn Korean directly.

Q: If you only have an hour to live, what would you do in that hour?
A: I would make a confession to the one that I love, I would say everything that I've never had the chance to say. I would show my gratitude to my family.. I would show them my love for them. Love never dies. (:

Q: If you were to be someone's best friend, who would it be?
A: I would love to be.. SNSD Hyoyeon's best friend. XD I don't want to be Jessica's best friend because.. I want to be her girlfriend. XD

Q: SNSD Jessica or TVXQ Changmin?
A: LOL This is hard. Umm.. I would choose to be Changmin's wife and Jessica's girlfriend. XD

Q: Do you find this boring?
A: To be honest, yes I do. Because all I'm doing now is asking and answering all the questions by myself. =.="

End. Finally, I was able to come up with 5 questions. That was pretty hard. >.< Took me quite some time.

p/s: Just to let you know that.. 我不主动找你, 不是因为你不重要, 而是我不知道在你心里我是否重要.. (:

*Sorry I don't like taking photographs*

Her mood swings, the way she acted, they way she dressed, her mannerism and the things she said sometimes…they were always left, stuck in my mind, wedged into my brain. Her words.

6 8 12

Wow.. I just rewatched the last episode of 'Strong Heart'..

Not only because SNSD was on the show..

It was also because I wanted to watch Jessica's reaction again to her own kissing scenes..

Muahahahaha *evil laughs*

How could you be so cute, Sica?

How could I not fall in love with you?

You're more than one could ever asked for.. (:

Anyway.. since they talked about Brian McKnight on the show..

I decided to listen to his songs..

As expected, real music is to be shared with people around the world.

6, 8, 12 by Brian McKnight is a very soothing song..

He expressed the song very well.. it's like it's attached to me right after I listened to the song.

Good job for introducing him to us, Fany. You should introduce him in a better way though.

Because.. Brian McMorning made me laugh like there's no tomorrow. HAHAHA.

Hyoyeon-ah, stop being so adorable. XD

I guess I should share it out to you all. Since the song is not bad to listen to.

Good things are meant to be shared.

Trust me, this song is really nice. (:

I just saw something that suits my mood today. This is it.

I do realize this though.

I have experienced the pain before.

I just don't plan to go through it again.

p/s: I know very well how to express my feelings by words.. but not by mouth.

Just a matter of time.

Muahahaha.

I am listening to Soshified radio right now.

Well, I downloaded the radio session actually.

It isn't the live streaming one.

Either way, I'm happy to listen to it. XD

Well.. there's something that annoys me everyday.

Supposedly, my driving examination was on 12th of March.

However, my instructor called me yesterday and said that he changed the date.

It's going to be on the 18th of March.

I was like.. what the hell? You serious?

I was so ready for it but you crushed it.. *sighs*

I just hoped that the exam date would be earlier because.. I don't wanna wait for another week again ><

It's basically torturing me to the MAX.

Let's skip this talk, shall we? XD

Something keeps bothering me today.

I am thinking about.. the things that may occur a few months later..

Will I still be as happy as I am now?

Will I still have time to spare for YouTube?

And most importantly..

Will I still be able to see you often?

I'm thinking too much sometimes.. way too much..

Someone had better stop me. LOL

I am not certain since when I care a lot about you..

I am not sure since when I am so interested in every word that you say.. every move that you make..

And I have no idea since when my mood is so easily affected by you..

I am always thinking of you..

Why? Hmm.. I really wonder why.

It's not like you have some kind of blood relation with me..

Or you're so unique for me to treat you like this..

You just.. kinda mesmerized me.. *laughs silently*

Anyway.. what I'm afraid of is..

The time that we have left..

We will be far apart someday.. I believe.

We will be very distant.. it's just a matter of time.

Until that day comes.. I will tell you.. that I really love you.

You're too precious for me. You deserve better.

p/s: Am I too timid? Thinking too much isn't a good thing though. XD

*I'm not posting any pictures today* XD

PG-18 post. Taeyeon special.

Whenever I am furious, I will try super hard to control my usage of words.

However, I always fail at it.

And when I say words, I mean vulgar language.

Yes, I am so fucking frustrated right now. Expect more foul words in this post.

I was told that someone said I made him lose a job opportunity. Bullshit.

What the fuck are you talking about? Like seriously.

I had never told that supervisor anything about you.

Not even a single word.

I was so fucking pissed after hearing that.

Have you already investigated it properly? How fucking certain are you that I was the one?

Prove me wrong, you dumbass.

Prove it with strong evidence, if you have one.

After I had ceased working there, I went to the mall once.

Only once.

And the thing is, I did not even land my foot at the regarding cafeteria.

Don't even expect an apology. There's nothing for me to apologize.

I do not wish to explain myself either. It's not like we're going to meet each other often.

I feel so fucking devastated now. Ugh.

I am so innocent.

I can't believe you would actually say it was me who did it. This is so absurd.

There is no reason for me to do that.

I need to cool down. I have to.

No tears are allowed to fall. Good. (:

p/s: Are we friends? Fuck yeah.

Jessica's sexy wave (:

Click on that link and you'll see my girlfriend dancing.. sexily. (:

Haha It's the dorky leader's 24th birthday today! Woohoo~

Happy Birthday, Taeyeon unnie! 사랑 해요~

Buing buing~ ^-^

Remain the dorkiness in you okay? (:

Your ahjumma's laugh is the best! XD

Annyeong~~ Stay happy always (:

Most importantly, please take care of yourself (:

Be busy, but never be lazy about your health, okay? ^-^

Dorkiness = 100%

You're so adorable in this picture! 

Haha yes, stay dorky alright? XD

Continue to sing well for all of us (:

I hope you'll have a great future in this industry..

Please be careful also. But I know you're smart enough. XD

I'll love you always.

No idea what to do about you. Just.. don't leave me.

You.

Get out of my mind.

Like seriously. Get the hell out.

Recently I realized I could not stop thinking of you..

No matter what I do, you are always in my mind

You make me need you so much that I can't bear to lose you

I have no confidence that I can handle the consequences of you slowly fading away

Sometimes I think I really have to stop myself from talking to you for a while..

It might ease the ache that I might be having in the future..

And I will not miss you or think of you that much in the future..

I know one day you'll stop looking for me;

Stop bothering me;

Stop talking to me;

Stop smiling at me;

Stop waving at me;

Stop walking with me;

Stop asking me out to either have lunch or shop with you...

These are all the possibilities that may occur..

And I just can't bear to let all these happen..

Therefore.. I made a promise to myself.

I promised myself that I would still talk to you even if you have nothing to talk to me about..

I promised myself that I would not ignore you whenever and wherever..

And also.. I promised myself that from now on..

I will try to distance myself from you..

Little by little..

The distance will increase.. and I will succeed.

Right..?

Well.. at least..

That's what I thought about..

I am not sure if this works but I'm going to make these attempts..

To try to withstand the ache in my heart that you might cause in the future..

All I hope is.. you will not walk out of my life.

Are you able to do that in the future even though we are already very far apart?

If you can do it..

These will all be useless to me.

Because I would love to be someone that you will not forget in your entire life.

p/s: Please don't walk away from me. I love you. I really do. Friends forever.

Hey beautiful. XD Can I have that straw?

Haha I love Running Man. 

They look so cute next to each other! XD

Muahaha. Lucky fella.

I have never believed in luck.

Never once believed in it.

Not until recently..

I noticed that I was considered fortunate

I was able to reject the job offer..

LOL Wow.

I was shocked..

I didn't know I would get the calls from them..

I would never expect that..

And.. another thing is..

I might get another chance..

I might be the lucky one..

Hopefully I would be.

Because I need this.

I really do. *crosses fingers*

I want to learn break dance..

I think this is a very good opportunity for me..

But.. *sighs*

Mom, will you allow me to attend the dancing class?

I know her. She won't. T.T

It's alright..

I know my passion for dancing will never disappear..

I will love dancing.. forever and ever.

Before I leave.. yeah, I need to show you all something.

I love the choreography.. so much. Especially REN's (the long blonde hair guy) part.. he's so freaking pretty.. I love him. XD

Nu'est jjang! XD 

p/s: Will you be mine? I will not leave you. I will love you more than I love myself. I promise.

The aftermath of crazy days. My working life.

【天秤座】
天秤座有善辩的口才，被别人误会的时候却不爱解释。不要问为什么，就是不爱解释。不喜欢伤害任何人，宁愿伤害自己。前景不乐观时会对喜欢的人冷静的说恨话，会口是心非。吃软不吃硬的一族。你软，秤子就对你没脾气。你硬，秤子就比你还横。有调查，十二星座谋杀记录最少的就是善良的天秤座。
天秤是个不能长期处于孤独之中的星座，一生都在寻找停靠的港湾，冥冥之中遇到你，喜欢你，爱上你。有了爱的人，他们便习惯天天粘在一起， 即使因为工作需要不得不暂时分开，也会保持最密切的联系，最后的结果常常是天秤什么也不顾的去你所在的地方，陪伴着你，因为爱着，所以习惯相依相守。
天秤温文尔雅，风度翩翩；在人前永远一副超脱的什么都看淡的，老好人的模样； 面具下：很注重自我意识，并且很需要别人的肯定。他们很有表现的欲望，无论在什么场合只要得到肯定他们就会非常满足，喜欢成为公众人物的感觉，同时有些自恋。
天秤座的人在争抢东西方面总是最弱的。属于自己的东西总是被人抢走还一副无所谓的样子，总给人留下懦弱无用形象。其实不是天秤没有能力去争抢，只是天秤明白一个道理，真正属于自己的东西是不用去争去抢。这不是优点，是缺点，只是天秤一种与生俱来的性格。


1. 不喜欢伤害任何人，宁愿伤害自己。
　　也太准确了吧。。

2. 前景不乐观时会对喜欢的人冷静的说恨话，会口是心非。
　　这句更准！

3. 天秤温文尔雅，风度翩翩；
　　这当然。。(:

4. 很注重自我意识，并且很需要别人的肯定。
　别人的肯定是一种动力。。

5. 属于自己的东西总是被人抢走还一副无所谓的样子..
    有一点准。。

好了，我只想说。。
我好久没写了。。
好想念我以前曾经所发生过的事情。。
几乎每一件事情都让我体会到一个道理。。
不同的道理。。
人也渐渐改变。。
最重要的是
我工作后发现。。
其实我也可以这样的。。
原来我是这样的。。
发现自己更了解自己。。
辛苦的那一段日子。。
我真的很想不做
一走了之。。
可是自己想了好久好久。。
发现那些都是需要一个忍字。。
顿时才发现。。
自己在慢慢地成长中。。
想的角度变宽了。。
还有最重要的是。。
我认识了我很珍惜的。。
我很感谢上帝。。
但是。。有时候会。。
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It's alright, as long as it's never something regretful (:
I'll be satisfied with every moment
I'll deal with every problem calmly and wisely..

p/s: I just love being loved. I hope you would notice it someday.

Before I go.. there's something that I have to share it with you. XD

 OMG Her.. skin is so white. She is too pretty.. to be my girlfriend. XD Her boobs. The best.

Her collarbones. >< The most attractive part of a body.

Why are you so perfect?

Isn't she adorable? XD

Too cute.. Too awesome.. Too amazing..

You will always be my love..